Thank you

It's January 7th and I'm sitting in an internet cafe. We've just moved and don't have internet yet. However, I just wanted to say thank you so much for all of you who have prayed for us and are lifting us up. I thought we wouldn't make it for a few days, but I know that it's the prayers of our friends and family that have brought us through. On the day that we found out the baby didn't have a heart beat, Judah, our 10 year old ran away. Clinton searched for him for 5 hours while I was at home grieving and very sick with a stomach virus. When he found him he was walking up and down the streets of the city begging money. He had taken off his new shoes that we just bought him and made himself look dity and was begging money!! Clinton was angry and mortified!! The next morning Clinton wakes up with his back completely out. He could barely walk. We were under such horrible attack that I didn't know if we would make it. But thank God for all of you!!! Thank God!!! We are doing much better now. We've moved into a new house which has taken an huge weight off. Many of you know that we were living in a 900sq ft house (or less) for the last year and a half. It was fine when the boys were smaller and we only had three. But now Colton and Chase are men and God has given us two more...........so the pressure of being in that house was intense in the midst of all that we were already going through. God has provided a much bigger house, with a great yard, and plenty of room for everyone to be able to think wihtout feeling someone else's breathe down their back. ; ) God has really been speaking to me when I read my word. I don't have my Bible with me at the cafe but I'll try to give you a little of what he's been showing me. I was reading Is 40:12- where it talks about all the wonders of God and how great He is. That the nations are but a drop in the bucket to Him, how he created all that is made. I've been griped remembering who God is. It almost makes me feel embarrassed when I think of how angry I was at Him when our baby died. He knows what's best for us even though in our small minds we can't even comprehend it. He holds the universe in place, He gives us breathe each day, with one word He can destroy nations! In a devotional that I'm reading, there was one sentence that really struck me....... no matter what comes your way choose to say, "Lord, I trust You1" If we could do this, our lives would be changed. If we could live knowing that God has our best interest in mind. My heart feels full of love. Although, I don't understand why God took Christopher, I trust Him. He is my daddy. The only one I've ever had... and I love Him. My eyes are full of tears just thinking of who He's taken care of me and my family; how He saved us from the pit 11 years ago; how He pulled me from my sin and shame 11 years ago. I say like Peter "Where would we go Lord, you have the words to eternal life!"